So tired

I've spent about 30 hours in the last three days writing a program for school, in addition to my full time job, and I may die of tired. For some reason, I keep accidentally hitting just the right shortcut keys to screw things up completely. I was in the middle of writing a long email and I managed to hit some combination of ctrl something that made it disappear. I assumed that it was deleted, but it just occurred to me that it might have been sent. Hell, I don't know. And apparently you can accidentally post here by hitting some combo that probably includes alt.

Sars at Tomato Nation wrote a new installment of Girls' Bike Club that made me feel better about the election for the first time, which is a good thing for my polyp.

I have a cat stuck inside my shirt with the bottom tucked under him so I can type and he can feel good about being close to me. I swear, if I have to buy a baby-carrier...

Some country music award show is on TV, and while it makes me cringe, I am too tired to go change the channel. That is how tired I am.

Sometimes insights seem really self-evident, but it takes someone else saying them to you in just the right way before you get them. I got this pamphlet at work today that talked about the way different people deal with the stress of change. It basically said that people who feel that external forces control their lives are much less willing to accept change than those who feel they have a large degree of control over their own lives. They are also less likely to take proactive steps to prevent bad things from happening. How much does this sound like christian conservatives? Think about it:

• in their minds, God controls everything that happens
• they're fighting to maintain "traditional values"
• they won't do anything to prevent global warming

I struggle to understand the mindset of a president who refuses to consider the Kyoto Accord because it might cost american jobs. Have you heard the news, George? The North Pole is melting. What will it take to get you to understand that a) jobs don't matter if the world is uninhabitable, and b) surely the economy would benefit from all the work involved in developing new technologies needed to reduce our environmental footprint. His real concern, of course, is not jobs per se, but maintaining the status quo. If oil loses, his supporters lose, and his own family loses: money, power, their stranglehold on the world. Can't have that, obviously. Come to think of it, it's not his mindset I struggle to understand so much as that of his supporters. Wake up, people. It's your neck, and your children's necks, that he has his fingers wrapped around. He is not your friend.